Thursday, 18 August 2016

RIP my beloved friend, companion and soul-mate.



























It's simply awful, lonely, quiet, still . . . all those familiar sounds are gone, those routines are in shambles and there's no reason to go for a walk any more. I cannot imagine walking on my own up on the Moor or along a beach or coastal path. The aching lump in my chest is physically painful and I burst into tears without warning. Even when I'm not crying, my eyes leak . . it's as though the grief has to come out in some way. I miss his presence so much and the house feels empty; I hate opening the door to come in, still waiting for the scramble as he comes to greet me, so happy that I'm back even if I've only been gone for 5 minutes. I miss those gorgeous golden eyes looking into mine and telling me so much.  I miss our conversations; I miss feeling his head on my feet, stroking his fur,  I just MISS him so much.
No apologies for sounding so negative and sorry for myself because I'm afraid I am.  

18 comments:

  1. RIP. I know from experience how you feel right now, you will always have special memories xxxx

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  2. Oh no!!! I feel so sorry for your loss!! He was such a wonderful friend according to what I've read on this blog. Loved the pics and all your adventures together! <3

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  3. Of course you feel sad and sorry.We both send you our sympathies, and are glad we had the opportunity to meet Zac.

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  4. So sorry to hear Zac has gone. From experience, I understand a wee bit of what you are going through now. Look after yourself.

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  5. Oh Rambler, I am so, so sorry to learn that dear, sweet, adventurous and affectionate Zac has passed away.

    I do know that nothing could be sadder.

    Sending you lots of love, along with a big hug. xo

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  6. Oh Rosie - I am so sorry, i am sure you miss him terribly. My thoughts are with you.

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  7. I am so sorry to read this. I am in tears.
    We give them our hearts and they love us back and then they break our hearts.
    I have just put away Watson's last water dish (near his pillow when he was so ill). It will be a year since his death soon. Still in tears .
    My thoughts are with you.

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  8. Thank you all for your kind thoughts and hugs; there will be more adventures to write about, some that included Zac - but at present it's hard to put together a coherent post. My apologies - but I will be back.

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  9. You need to grieve. Zac was a special friend and soul mate. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  10. My heart breaks for you. Most of us know that lonesome, lost feeling when someone we love has passed on. Why do these wonderful creatures, who give us so much love, live such short lives? Time does make it easier.

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  11. I am so sorry to hear that you have lost your dear friend. It is, as you say, truly awful and you need time to grieve. Sending you my best, best wishes.
    Cathy x

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  12. So very sorry for you. I know how you feel having experienced the same thing recently. It will be easier in time, but in the meantime as some wise person told me "just feel the feelings". Hugs to you. xx

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  13. Oh no, so sorry. It's just so hard to lose a beloved pet. Had to have my cat put to sleep in May and was completely devastated, still miss him so much. Thinking of you.

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  14. I am so sorry. It is a terrible thing to go through. I hope it is some comfort that he was so loved and cared for.

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  15. I am catching up on my blog reading, so sorry to read about Zac. Having owned many dogs over the years this is the hardest part, you have to balance it against the good life you gave him and the pleasure you had.

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  16. Oh Rambler, I am just catching up having lost my list of "favourites" on my toolbar. I am so sorry about your beloved Zac. I hope you are starting to feel a little better. I am about 3 years off retirement and am hesitating to get a dog then, but then when I see how much you miss him I do wonder. I still think the good outweighs the bad though. I don't know your intentions about getting another dog or not as I am still trying to catch up, but I have a strange feeling some pup out there just might chose you as his new friend one day. God bless and take care. Anna

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    1. Thank you, Anna. It's so hard NOT to miss him, because everything I did, Zac responded and so I miss him all the time. It helped a bit by having my son and his family here for a while, but now I'm on my own, I feel so lonely (and I've never felt lonely before). The house is dead - and I think I will have another dog one day, but first I am making arrangements to have a replacement knee (long overdue). Then we shall see.

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